Imagin this was you!!!

So I've been wanting to go and see the movie District 9 for a long time... Well since the day it came out any way... so scheming i thought to my self i should ask him if he wanted to go to the movies so i would have to pay and we would get to hang a little bit, which doesn't happen often. Of course it worked because he is all in to that sifi stuff. We went to the movies and i liked it it was cool.. i thought it was interesting how it showed how quick the government could dehumanize some one quote on quote in the name of science, war or what ever else there reason.

Well any who! That is not rely what this blog is about as we where leaving the theater which was in the same lot as a big mall we are leaving to go on to the main street. Waiting at the light i take notice to a very young boy and girl, they couldn't be older then 18 years old. At first i thought they where just chilling on the grass in between traffic which is not too uncommon, but at a second glance i notice they have a card board cut out that says "Homeless Please Help". Out of reaction thinking out loud i said poor child they are so young... all at the same time thinking i wish i would have picked up my check from work today because then i would have had cash on me and may be i would have been able to at least give them some cash and hopefully help them out.

Out of no where my father says its their fault, and if they didn't want to be homeless they would get a job. this made me so angry inside and i couldn't hold my tongue so i asked him what did he mean by that? He goes on to say that if they they are able bodied and could get work so thats what they need to do. I couldn't believe what was coming out of his mouth!! H continued to say there are so many ways of making money... Sell CD's and some other things that just made no sense, i asked him how would they get these CD's that was going to cure their current state of homelessness... he said, Steal them!!!! at that second i realized he was just being ignorant which is the nicest way of explaining it. i was thinking that he was judging them and giving them no consideration and sympathy due to there piercings and tattoos and told him just that. He disagreed with me and goes on to say that he is right because he knows how the youth today are.

I asked him to put him self in to there shoes and to think... Wouldn't he want someone to have the kindness and love in there heart to try and help him in any way possible. I was floored at the thought that he could look past the expression in these two peoples faces. Because i saw fear, uncertainty, pain, the feeling of being lost.... i mean its heart breaking that some people are so quick to judge and i wish that we as a people of the world would consider our brothers and sisters. On top of that i was surprised that he could even fix his mouth and say the things he did when his mother and father are straight off the Banana Boat refuges from Haiti and and soon after he was born both died leaving him and his 9 brother's and sisters orphaned...

Lastly i would just like to say i wish more people gave a little more because one it makes a difference in those people lives around us and if you believe in karma well .... There you go!!!

Have you ever been in a situation like this or witnessed one? if so Please tell...

Just a Cupple thoughts and an apology... And you know what??? I found me again...

So i had a interesting weekend.. Full of mixed emotion it kind of drove me crazy... So 2 years ago i decided to go to school in the Virgin Islands (UVI Boop Boop!!!) and first went to become a nurse but after a semester realized that it was not for me and it was what my parents settled for because i didn't want to be a doctor any more... typical right.. its funny how your parents have you thinking that you want what they want for you.. (but thats another blog)

I can say that this was the best decision i have ever maid in my life...It honestly made me who i am today well kinda sculpted who i was before i went i guess.. My parents and family where quite trepidatious about letting me go it being my first away from home over a month... but i was very persistent and soon they got over the fact that i was going.

So two years down the line i am back home not really of my choice school got quite expensive and not i have to save up more money with the intent of not letting that push my graduation back... i guess i always knew that it would come to this but it didn't really set in until i didn't get on my flight Saturday @10:20.. i have to say i was not my self i was not very nice to who ever did something that i thought annoyed me except my dog Josie.. i have to say to all if i was rude or just not pleasant this weekend and offended you i am sorry that is not my character and need to work on that even though it rarely happens...

So yesterday i called my called my friends form school and gave them the news... all of it!! and they where so supportive like i couldn't wish for better friends who are so loving some times i wonder how do i find these people who are just so genuine and caring and it just made my day amazing i was high off there supporting spirit and realized i will be with them even if i never saw them again and on top of that they are only a phone call away... geeezzz i wish everyone who needs people in there life like these friends find them....

Basically i just want to thank them and let them know I love you guys seriously......
See You In SEPTEMBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Scream!!!! LMAO SERiousLY!!!!!


I have a question?? Has any one else experienced something like this and if so how did you deal with????

Well again people Peace and always love Byeeeeee
Big Smile...=)

Scatter Brains!!! Geeeezzzz...

So i knew i wanted to make a nice little list of words that go together and some how form those things called sentences wit periods and commas and stuff.. and those sentences may or may not make since (can't be responsible for that). So i sat down and made a list of what i would like to talk (or write) about.. sorry ill warn you now i think it may end up being a little long if you don't mind. the list just got a little long. (skimming is always allowed)

Ill start off by saying thanks for reading on but my first topic is about Communication, with out this i believe we as people have no chance because we tend to assume way too much. a lot of this tends to be negative and negativity gets you no where seriously. I was on twitter today bored obviously and i watched two seemingly good "friend" or at least associates get in to it over nothing. First and for most it this negative tweet was never posted the incident would have never occurred. Second if the party that misconstrued the tweet would have just asked a simple question... was that in reference to me? There relationship would have never been compromised. we can end up only hurting our selves and others when acting irrationally, ending up making our selves publicly look like fools.... please people save your self the embarrassment and next time lets thing twice about what we say or tweet, aim away messages, facebook status changes, and even myspace mood update.

Some how this brings me to my second thought/question(looking for some advice) may be... i consider my self to be a very positive person and i am trying to find new ways of spreading that environment to others. my parents have chosen to adopt children and i guess its kind of one of those things when you take them in after a certain age where you also adopt there good and there bad. and have your heard that its hard to teach a old dog new tricks.. well thats is the honest truth especially when one does not want to change... (no gosh i am not saying they are dogs) but any who... how some times its so over bearing that i find my self getting their confusion... this does a number on my aura... sorry sometimes i rant but if you can please give me your advise would love to hear it... that was my question but about positivity i believe that we should all look at the silver lining of things because if we do we can channel happiness... can you see where i am going with this... yes i am going say it then we will have peace which is like the best feeling like ever... it has the power to make you cry like omg... and i digress...

Ilove Kathy Griffin and Sarah Silverman cool people... Random BTW

Well in my last blog i promised i would talk about a question that i proposed which basically was... Have you ever maid a decision that changed you for the better drastically? Well thats right folks, i have i just want to say going away to school in the VI helped me to figure out who i was as an individual and i just want to thank the parents, who allowed me to go.. i would have went anyway but thats besides the point.. and everyone who i have come into contact with over there because positive or negative interaction you have helped shape who i am today. i feel like i could never have learned what i have learned any where else so if you have a similar story please tell that was just an over view if u want we can swap specifics later wink wink... lol (i don't know what the winks are for it kind of scares me why my fingers typed that...)

Last but not least for today last night i was setting in my bed and was watching the History Channel.... i no the History Channel i don't know how in hell it got to this channel but i watched two programs that kind of bothered me the first was if i remember Abraham Lincoln. This program focused on weather or not he was gay or not first of all i found the subject frankly ummmm insignificant... i mean why does it matter.... so the program went on talking about how what ever lady he was or was not evolved with and no i do not mean his wife. talking about his relationships with other men i mean people he say she say is history??? well any who there was another question that was proposed... wait until you read this... "Do you believe that Abraham's sexuality is what influenced him to free the slaves" Now ummm don't get me started... his sexuality made him want to free the slaves... think about this he was gay so he wanted to free the slaves????? is there something off here or is it just me??? The person who proposed that stupid question's rational was that because he wanted to be freed sexually he sympathized with blacks being enslaved... did this quote on quote scholar just try to equate slavery with the en-ability to be free sexually... umm idk i am just saying...

So the next program talked about... umm... like wonders such as pyramids and ancient technology such as the Baghdad battery which brought up the question of intelligence outside of our world. history channel and it basically said that ancient civilizations where not sophisticated enough to have any part in creating these marvels.. so they went across the world Egypt, Belize and many other places where they found structures that would be hard to bugle even today and almost impossible. my issue with this is that how can you say that an entire civilization of people in incapable or doing something just because one can find evidence of how they did it and to take that away from them sand say that is some other force did it.. aliens well all i can do or say is Chups....(Carib for sucking teeth) people we cant step out side of our selves for one sec and just chalk some things up to just that we do not understand them and just because we don't know how it happened it must mean that some super being did it. I am not saying that aliens don't exist or anything and don't want to get into that but it is very possible that these people had their own ways of doing things because they are clearly in existence... and are still around today i charge " modern day people to try and create things that will last this long" because looking at the show 10,000 years after people sad to say some of our impressive trump towers and what not will not be around... so how is that for intelligence...

I know what you are thinking Final Fuckin Lee lmao he is done....
well thanks for reading people love ya....
Big smile... Cheese!!!!!

You Wanna See Something????

This is just a little video of pics of ma weekend that i promised... We had a good time right guys!!! Well hope you like it......

Well while i am waiting for it to load yesterday i saw something that bothered me so much... So i was at home depot because i needed to get some supplies because two of our sprinklers where broken and it was time they where fixed... story of my life i should so be a certified Gardner by now... so i am on my way ou geting in the car and i noticed that this ladie in a van was circling the parking lot several times. This seemed weird and just as i was puting the cart in the small place designated for carts until they are picked up ...(hint hint i have no idea wat its called she has two of her children get out of the car,
(mind you they are around may be 13-17 years old) and they ar looking in the back of someones car atempting to steal gardening supplies as she kept look out.... This saddened me and just made me think what kind of future these children would have with a role model like her..

Parents.... Please Please do better by your children insuring them a bright future...

Well anyway remember this one thing people Peace and Love people.... and thanks for reading and watchin...
love ya


Where are You????

Cameras take Pictures!!!!

As far as the title it has nothing to do with what you are about to read. (would want you to waist your time...) well im siting here and i am listening to a little reggae and some dance hall trying to start my day off right...(btw my fav. music in the world) but i am just reflecting on my weekend, i came out here on Saturday (Compton Ca) i live in Lancaster... to visit 2 of ma best friends an stay with them for a while so Saturday we went to knots soak city which was really fun it was my first time being there i had the best time and at this water park i actually got on some of the attractions ill post a short video wit some pics later if you are interested but i am proud of my self because i had a fear of these things and by bestti who calls her self Ladie is the one who pushed me to get on and after the first one it was super fun.. the next day we went to Hermosa Beach and i got to see my good friend Steve he is always fun we met in the VI (Virgin Islands) which is where i go school interesting character he is but i love him... but at the beach we played volley ball i was resistant at first in the end i loved it had a lot of falls but it was a blast. Later we went home.

So have you seen this movie called short bus its really good and i recommend it to everyone.. i first stumbled across it with a friend in grad school she is a psych major and they had to analyze the movie. The Complete title is Shortbus - Voyeurism is Participation. At that time i payed no attention to it but then ran across it again watching some of the videos of Jay Brannan who was one of the Characters in the movie. I will try no to spoil the movie for you but its about a Ladie who can not have an orgasm.. (sucks) but the more i reflect on this movie you see so much more. It depicts how we are all connected, how we can all help each other, understanding love on so many levels, and the different forms of love, one on one, at a distance. I related to this in many ways and i am sure you would to. i am currently trying to find the book version because i just lived it that much i am telling you its a must see. (random BTW papaya is good in the morning lol)

Im Going to end with a question yes sir a ? Have you ever made a decision that you didnt know would change you in so many ways for the better... hint hint.... this is what my next blog will be in part talking about!!!!! (random BTW Jay Brannan's Music is nice)

Well again thanks for reading thanks for reading!!!!
BYe loveLy people oh! and Eyes Record Stuff....

I did it!!!

Its around 11pm and i guess I'm no longer a Virgin... This is my first blog Yaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ive been procrastinating for the longest while and i finally just did it...

So i guess ill just tell u about my past few weeks not that you are supper interested in knowing...
So i am back home for the summer and i have hardly attempted applying for work which was the main point of coming home in the first place. Its been mostly Chillin and Partyin.... Normally i am in school in the Virgin Islands which i love.... If u can u should so go seriously but anyway... i am having the best time ive had in Cali in the longest while ive been able to see my Fam which is always nice and all of ma Best Friends who i have missed so much.

On the other hand i have been having some very interisting convo with my mom that before going off to school i was almost afraid to take a stance on, which is (drumb roll) her homophopia lol, honestly its fun for me to talk to her about this because we (my siblings and i) where raised as black muslims and where taught that homosexuality is wrong... after going to school and meeting people from various walks of life and lifestyles i have come to the conclusion that i have no problem with homosexuality, well n e way so my mom seems to think that it is a disgusting and un-natural lifestyle and is very adiment about geting that point across to anyone who she thinks is gay or has no issue with homosexuality. Our arguments normally dont get anywhere but agreeing to disagree until recently it seems as if she is slowly but surely taking some of my arguments in to consideration....(it put a smile on my Face to realize this =) i dont think she realized that she is in a since discriminating against people and kind of spreading hate...when she does this and on top of that she couldnt argue this one question ... Do you believe the you Choose who you love??? Since its a choice....

Well thanks for reading people Peace n Love always come again!!!!!!!!!